Gingko Biloba

Somewhere, somehow I found out about the power Ginkgo Biloba's to give the Homo Sapiens an extra few brain receptors.

So, whilst on my raw vegan died I took one Ginko Biloba tablet each day. Diligently.

If you read my previous posts going raw is not too easy. I did it for just over six weeks, I think. I stopped counting days after a while.

But, I also stopped the raw diet. I stopped because I felt dizzy and for the first time in my life I had headaches. I didn't even write about it. I wasn't sleeping properly. I slept about 4-6 hours each night. It was another kind of life that I had never experienced before. Yet, I was functioning.

I was on the toilet all the time. My body was not processing properly the food that I was consuming.

I figured it was the raw diet full of fibre that sent me to sit on the toilet for what seemed worthless shit. Excuse me.

I went to the doc.

Said: "I feel dizzy and I have headaches. I have to hang on to the wall sometimes to steady myself. A totally new feeling for a sober state." I didn't mention the toilet trips because I knew it was the raw food that gave them to me. (HOW VERY WRONG I WAS!!!)

The Doc checked my blood pressure, looked into my eyes and into his computer, turned around and said: "You don't have diabetes, your blood pressure is fine and you are not anaemic. It will go away by itself."

The conversation was had over a month ago.

So, I started eating bread and cooked food still under the impression if was the poor raw fruit and veg's fault. I only ate vegan food though. But, not raw. I even started drinking decaffeinated coffee hoping that it may help my headaches and dizziness. In fact I was so desperate I even had ice cream. A lot of ice cream in one day. It didn't help. It gave me lots of spots though.

I did abstain from all animal products other than an occasional organic egg. This is something that I am very happy and proud about.

The headaches have stopped, the dizziness has gone and I am sleeping my usual 8-9 hours per day.

But the reason I am feeling OK again is because I have stopped taking the Ginkgo Biloba supplement. 

There was one bit of sanity left in my head that said stop taking the supplement it may be the culprit. Just see what happens. The funny thing is that I stopped taking the pineapple enzyme before stopping Ginkgo. It is extremely laughable how much faith I had in this supplement.

It is only the other night when I noticed that the dizziness has left that I googled side effects of Ginkgo. And guess what! DIZZINESS was screaming from every link.

Not only that, I am always hungry! I eat like crazy. I wondered why. Now I know. It is the Gingko.

My body is very sensitive to all medicines.

What this has proven to me once again that raw food is absolutely nothing to blame for and as soon as I am ready again we shall be together. Together, looking out for each other and with love healing the body of all the trauma of abuse I have put it through.

My dear body, thank you for coping so well.
I shall treat you well again.

p.s. Considering how much reading I do with regards to anything that I consume it is simply baffling that I never read about the ginkgo side effects. Sometimes things just happen because they have to.

Getting back to raw: the plan

In 2012 I gave up artificial/refined sugars. I gave them up for the summer. In the winter I was back on Jaffa Cakes. So, I had a few months break.

That first stint of freedom from sugars was extremely hard. I still remember it. I was so though and so strong. Stoic, in fact.

However, the second time round it was a breeze. Abstaining from the poison of our bodies was extremely easy.

Hence, the next time I start the raw diet I know from experience that it will be easier than the first time.

Right now, I am feeding my heavy appetite. It is a temporary state. Once I am ready I will stop eating all cooked food and the food will be my medicine. Food void of any supplements.

The break from the raw

The break has been a learning experience and I am about to start it again and hope, as before, that it will make Bob and Max go away.

I will write about the progress.

Ousting fibroids on raw diet day 26

If you falter a little it doesn't mean you have failed. It means that there has been a pause and a little step back. In the grand scheme of life this falter is minuscule. As minuscule as getting a cold.

If you find your hormones going completely mental as the body is approaching the day 28 of your monthly cycle and you feel that a trip to the pub with your favourite person is what is needed then so be it. Please be aware that there are two ways of doing this and I do not mean going to the pub on a whim.  Rather, you must chose consciously, in advance, that it is the right thing to do. Seeing the situation from an outsider's perspective whilst holding your gaze on your long-term intended aims and objectives. Aim to detox fibroids out of the body. 

So, think about it for a while. Visualise the experience where you are enjoying that drink and the company. And only do it if you can enjoy it. Otherwise there really is no point. 

Accept the drink as part of the process and then walk through it consciously. Walk through the aftermath of hangover and healing consciously. You will get a little depressed. It's because you are hangover and because you have slowed down the healing. 

However, knowing that the pause on healing is only a pause and the healing process will resume shortly is what makes it alright. It's not the end of the world. Just jump straight back into it. 

We are human before and after everything. It would be completely acceptable and human to give up and say: 

"fuck it.... I am going for an operation. It will be fine. I will eat pills like most people do. I will drink coffee, eat bread, pig, milk.. etc." 

But then, saying: 

"fuck it, I will have a few glasses of wine, the liver will cope much better than it would if I had a few glasses of wine on a daily or a weekly basis. The healing will resume. Soon. I am so healthy the liver will cope well." 

Is a much better option and completely human. Weak? You may say? A part of me agrees. But strong too because I didn't give up completely.

Since researching alternative healing options for those suffering with tumours I have come across many videos and blogs where women embark on healing paths and then after a few posts: NOTHING. Silence. I assume they just give up without a note. 

DO not give up. It is all part of the process. 

One day of fun with an amazing friend has been fantastic and I am so grateful that I have my friends. I am grateful to my body and fibroids for making me cleanse my body.

The fight has only just begun. 24 days of 100% raw vegan diet is pretty hard core as it is. 

May we all be happy and healthy. 

Fibroids, backache and the old school GPs

My GP made me cry.

He said: "Just remove all of it".
"All of it?"
GP: "Yes, they're too large."
"My uterus?"
GP: "yes, your uterus is this size (he makes a round shape with his thumb and index finger) and your fibroids are this big (makes a round shape with both of his hands)."

I cry... but I say "no one is removing my uterus". Luckily I had already read about fibroids and my heavy menses did not bother me. Lucky.

The said GB is generally insensitive and very old school. Not that the two are qualities are inseparable.

Fibroids do cause backache

I read an on-line a doctor advice a patient that her 5cm fibroid cannot be causing her back-pain! What fallacy! 5cm fibroids do cause backache. They do indeed. Max was a real  pain in the back when he arrived.

I just hope women do not listen to those single minded medicine men.

I love it when the medicine men so assertively put us into our place. 

I watch my father who has dementia refuse everything but medicine. He refuses to drink water and to shower but when I hand him medicine he is all up for it. Medicine men's words are so engrained in us and so superior to all else around that they govern all our lives.

If we give ourselves to them completely we stand a chance of losing so much along with health of our bodies.

Take everything with a pinch of salt.

My sister was given a session with a nutritionist at the hospital once. The nutritionist advice was to never eat fruit and veg and stay out of sun light!!!! To which sister and I responded: "what else is there to eat???" Needless to say the nutritionist's advice was ignored. Lucky!!!

So weird.
Weird.
Weird.

Whilst we must be open to our medicine men and women we must also take charge of our healing process and get a real education of our own bodies. They are so mysterious and so complex... So extremely beautiful.

Do you watch the way people carry their bodies? Some use it like it is tapestry for art. Fun. Some cannot accept theirs and seem to reside elsewhere. Some give them up to other's yet strive to take charge. They will paint it with a tattoo or two, put on a nice frock and give themselves a simile in the mirror. ... Yet, they will not love what they see. Take charge. Be in charge of the body whilst working with it. Be good to it. Give it only what your love of it allows you to feed it. Feed it with love, light and life.

Be kind to our dear bodies.

Give it only what it needs: fresh food, sunshine, exercise, love and attention. It will be so grateful. 

Cabbage and 100% RAW Vegan Diet

This morning I am having a massive bowl of organic savoy cabbage for breakfast. I can eat it just as it is. Peal leaf by leaf or thinly sliced. It tastes so delicious.

For more nutrients I added my two basics of avocado and tomato plus pepper and cucumber.

I dressed it with a lot of hemp seed oil for the omega fats and also to keep some fat on the body. Not sure how well this will work. Generally I eat a lot of avocado and nuts but I don't know if it's enough.

This is an experiment. 

If for one year I eat only vegetables and fruit with nuts there should really not be too many problems as a result. 

I had in the past taken a year out and just drunk alcohol at least three times per week. This was when I was a lot younger and other than fibroids I didn't really get any serious illness. 

Surely the body will work well in a year of good feed. 

Get friendly with cabbage! 

Scientific research has proven that anti-cancerous properties in cabbage can be utilised when cabbage is eaten raw or fermented. Also, interestingly, cabbage should be cut into chunks not smaller than 1cm in order to preserve enzymes' abilities to create cancer fighting actions (Huffington Post, 2013).

Information and mention of cabbage as a great healer is overwhelming the www so a google search will yield a variety of written material, scientific and that from popular press. I only mention Huffington Post because the article is succinct and very well referenced.

I have a massive jar of cabbage undergoing fermentation process. This is extremely easy to prepare. I eat fresh cabbage as often as I fancy it. It is delicious so it's no bother.

The point is, I believe, to embrace and act on the advice we are given. The beauty of knowledge is that it provides us with tips on which road leads to our best destination. My gratefulness is to all of those who are experimenting, observing, coming up with results and sharing them with us the normal mortals who only -albeit selfishly- want to be healthy.

I am now 40 years old and my idea of fun used to be a day/night in the pub with good company giving my liver a hell of a ride with all the wine and rum I could fit inside my body. This was cruel to say the least. But fun! I lot of fun!

However, if it the choice is between a couple of good days in the pub with a horrible hangover the days after followed by trips to hospitals intermittent with surgeries and taking medicines; and the choice two is no hospitals, no surgeries, no medicines, no alcohol, no hangovers, fun is found in long walks and picnics with sparkling water, trips to new places, opera, theatre, dancing, gym, cinemas, raw dinners.... then clearly the option two is the one to chose. It is so obvious and so simple.

May your road lead to health and happiness. Mine too. :)



P.S. Fibroids are tumours. They are non-cancerous (how lucky) but I see that they need to be ousted using the same process as that required to remove other tumours. They are all a consequence of inflammations and toxicity of the body. (I have read scientific research on this and also heard raw foodists speak of it too - the evidence is rife).

I am sure my fibroids are getting smaller on this 100% raw diet

My two fibroids, Bob (front) and Max (back) are getting smaller. I am sure they are. After only 18 days of eating 100% raw.


Although Bob feels the same every day he is not popping out as much as he had done before I begun the 100% raw diet. I have a feeling that it is actually Max that is on his way out because Bob does not protrude as much as he used to but he is the same size. I cannot feel Max because he is hiding in the back so am not sure. This is a speculation based on the fact that my abdomen is flatter. Bob doesn't protrude so far because there is more room there. Unless all of my other organs have shrunk and Max is still staying strong. Highly unlikely.

Furthermore, to rule out fullness of the large intestine it is important to note that I base my findings on the examinations I conduct after the colon is emptied.

Backache due to fibroids

I remember when Max arrived. He came first, before Bob. He gave me a massive lower back ache. It was painful to lie for a couple of weeks. I didn't take painkillers. Instead, I found a comfortable position by raising my legs up on a few pillows. That made me comfortable so I slept.

Without looking into it too much I figured my back was hurting because I hadn't done any exercise for a few years.

In many ways this was the right diagnosis. I joined the gym and started working out regularly. I was also fasting every now and again. I was taking charge of my slightly podgy body. Max got settled in and we got on with life. I was at the gym 5-6 times per week. I felt amazing. A few times when I didn't work out for a while the back ache would return.

My father's side of the family all suffer from backaches. Hereditary, they said. "My back hurts if I don't work out" - I responded, and left it at that.

It was only after about a year that Bob arrived. I remember his hard mass popping up from my finely toned abs. I'd go to the loo and then he'd be gone. I never really paid too much attention to him.



My reasoning is that maybe because Max was the first to come he is the first to go.

Since it has only been 18 days of raw detox I will leave it another 18 days then make an appointment for an ultrasound and will post here with full details. I want them to be smaller by at least 1cm than last year so that I can stay inspired to continue this quest to cleanse the body of what it would be happier without.

Testosterone and fibroids

Today is the 16th day on raw diet

Last night I read that whilst Seppo Puusa tried to heal his skin of acne by eating raw for a year he ended up with type 2 diabetes. He doesn't go into what kind of raw diet he had therefore it is hard to conclude how he got diabetes. Most other people have actually cured diabetes by eating raw. 

Puusa does a lot of research on what scientist have found out and makes his words rather valuable with such wide reaching evidence. Amongst many things he writes about the role of hormones play on formation of acne. It's an interesting read. 

Everything is connected. Researchers have proven that women with high testosterone are 1.33 times likely to develop fibroids. But, strangely, women who had both high testosterone and high estrogen levels "were less likely to have a recurrence of fibroids than women with low levels" (Frellick 2015).

I too, have always had acne which have been defined by doctors as hereditary and therefore almost permanent. Food and lifestyle are always mentioned. But - I always thought I was eating healthily! (As a lot of people do. this is a new topic.)

I read about acne and put it down to high testosterone levels. High testosterone levels also reflected in my little bit of an angry streak. But, then everyone gets angry. Don't they (?). 

This points to conclude that, if all of the above is correct, if I was to have Bob and Max surgically removed - although they may be likely to come back - they may actually not because I have both high testosterone, and high estrogen levels. This is a note to self just in case one year of eating raw is not enough to get rid of them. 

The summer of 2015 my skin was horrific. It was after spending the winter months boozing and partying, some stress with starting my own business and moving a house. My back was sore with cut skin which I got by scratching spots. It was very unsightly to say the least. 

However, after stopping the consumption of alcohol, meat, and dairy (I haven't eaten sugar since June 2013) my skin was slowly getting better. In the last 16 days of eating raw food I think I have had maybe two new spots. Rather amazing, I think.

Last year I cleansed. Now I am detoxing and the skin is healing. The scars will always stay. But I find them very attractive so that is OK.

It is generally understood by the medical profession that fibroids occur as a consequences of hormonal imbalance. Scientist have tried to link the occurrence of fibroids with thyroid but have not been able to prove any significant link. (I read this a while back and now I can't find the link for the article.)

My thyroid levels are all good when they were checked in the summer of 2015. 

In essence, I know that fibroids are not with me for just one reason. They are here as a variety of causes. Body is one unit and although some may blame the wacky balance between progesterone and estrogen other hormones are also playing a part and cannot be ignored in order to fix the problem. 

I drunk so much alcohol in my 20s and early 30s that if fibroids are all I have to suffer as a consequence, then, I am most grateful to be so lucky.

Everything is connected. The body has to be healed all together in order to combat one little object of frustration.  

Fibroid size fluctuates

Over the last two weeks of eating strictly Raw, the fibroids Bob and Max have been fluctuating in size.

This could be for a number of reasons. I am monitoring them and will hopefully be able to figure out the causes. 

The most notable thing is that Bob and Max have spent those days mostly being smaller. Their might was only for about three out of 14 days. 

If they continue to be smaller most of the time, and perhaps start shrinking, then the raw is the right road.

The point of writing this blog is to learn how long it takes to lose fibroids through eating raw food. No one I have read so far has told me the exact time frame for saying goodbye to Bob and Max. 

There is one woman on youtube who declared that she got rid of her fibroids within one month of doing a water fast. That is drinking water for one month and having nothing else. She previously tried other things none of which worked. She was desperate and so she found a way. 

I am not brave enough to do a month water-fast. But also, although I am desperate to get rid of them I am not in pain. My periods are OK since I stopped eating meat and dairy. Fibroids don't hurt. They are uncomfortable sometimes and make me visit the loo a lot. They are unsightly as well. But, we are OK. 

Moreover, I am at a very good weight right now and there isn't much fat reserve to keep me fasting for a month. I fear I would turn into a skeleton. I am, however, still planing on doing a few fast-days to accelerate the healing process. 

Things are a little busy at the moment and I am riding my push bike a lot. Fasting and riding a bike don't go together so I must wait for a while. 

100% Raw Breakfast

Exactly two weeks since I had those last three sips of coffee and begun the raw journey

What will I eat if I am only allowed fruit, veg and nuts? Well, fruit, veg and nuts. But, the beauty is that after a little while you just start listening to the body and give it what it fancies. I can eat anything I want any time I want!

So, this morning I had this most amazing breakfast yet: 

-One whole avocado
-One Raw Flaxseed Pitta Bread (I bought this one already made by the RAW company) 

-One clove of garlic

-A quarter of a red pepper 

-Salt 

-Hempseed oil

-Pine nuts

-Sunflower seeds

Chuck it (lovingly) into a favourite bowl. Crush it all about. Mix it a bit. And it tastes like heaven. Greasy, fatty, crunchy, Omega full breakfast; a few hours after a massive gollop of Organic Apple Cider Vinegar. 

I can feel the body cleansing. 

Does Raw Diet Make me a Social Outcast?

I would say that it does! However, only from our unhealthy-life social circles.   

I have stopped going to the pub which used to be my main hangout with everyone that I knew. After work, after class, after a sports event, after a gig, for lunch, for dinner, for a meeting, for coffee.... Even for watching films and gigs. All with a glass of wine in my hand. And if the party is in a really good swing then some rum and coke too. 

All of that is now gone! Finished. I will go to the pub and then have to explain to people why I am not drinking and not eating. Sometimes I am in the mood to tell the full story. Sometimes I am not. It is hard to say goodbye to that part of my life. When everyone starts having an amazing tipsy time it is generally time for me to go home to my pineapple juice and some BBC drama. Nick Hornby's if I am lucky. 

The upside is that my eyes are crystal clear every day. Days become longer because they are not overcome by wasteful hangovers. I have more time to study. I have more time to be idle. And with some luck fibroids will melt away too. So, we are social outcast but only from our former lives. 

Now, I am starting to create new social circles with people who are also following raw lifestyle. People who are holistic healers, gardeners and not big drinkers. My old friends are still here. Supporting me on my quest to put the body in order and say goodbye to Bob and Max (two large fibroids the size of grapefruits). Having said this I must note the following:

Healing process as a pleasurable experience. 

 

Here, I have a deliciously crunchy salad which tastes what I imagine is like kissing heaven! I am not kidding! 

Simple raw ingredients full of sunshine. I used red cabbage which has fibroid ridding properties, red pepper which is full of vitamin C, cucumber which is hydrating and excellent for the skin, garlic: an antioxidant and kiss repellent, tomatoes: an antioxidant and a cancer fighter, alfalfa sprouts, calorific avocados, probiotic gherkins, brainy oily walnuts, lots of salt, alkalising apple cider vinegar and hemp seed oil. 

Eating this in a park full of fragrant roses whilst body was being sun kissed and bathing in vitamin D; beautiful scenery of relaxed people - eating raw was the only way to go. It smells fresh and healthy, it tastes fresh and healthy, it fills you up and it leaves you feeling light. 

Raw is the only way to go. 

The transition is hard socially. There is no pill to make everything alright. We have to work for it. 

We live in s diseased world. Socially and ecologically. We simply have to navigate as best as we can. The survival of the most gutsy. Raw foodists are gutsy! 

Raw food lifestyle may not be easy to begin with but serving my salad in a nice bowl and eating it with a proper cutlery rather than the common choice of plastic for picnics makes things so much more enjoyable. Decorate your food, take time over it. Slow the process down. Jus think how much more time we have because we don't have to slaver over a cooker. We are saving energy, time, vitamins. We are gaining every second we are not cooking and eating dead, sticky food. Joy is truly in the making. 

To life without fibroids I raise my glass of breakfast beetroot juice!!!!

After a week and a half, Bob and Max are still here. I am not expecting them to leave now but within a year, I hope. So, I shall be recording the process in case any of you need to know. Still, it is worth remembering that we are all different. I just hope that this works for me like it worked for a few others.

100% Raw - first week or so

The first week of 100% raw I was feeling tired. I googled raw diet detox symptoms rather a few times and was rest assured that it is OK to be tired for a little while. 

A few days before I went 100% raw my abdomen felt enlarged and fibroids seemed to be at their peak greatness. I was so scared that they were growing. I had to intervene. I had to take charge. So, I stopped eating cooked food. Then stopped eggs, then bread. The last to go was coffee.

Last few days I'd go to coffee shops order an espresso and sit there for a while. For half an hour, maybe longer, and only take about three sips. I didn't want to poison my body any longer. I didn't want to feed Bob and Max (the fibroids). 

About four days into my all raw lifestyle I was starting to feel tired for a while. I lost some blood through menses but not much. Therefore, it couldn't be anaemia. I didn't want to take any chances so I juiced beetroot and used spinach as the main base for my salads. I perked up after a few days. 

I was feeling lousy - to be totally frank. 

I put it down to broken heart and lack of coffee. I loved a lot, and I drunk a lot. A lot of strong black coffee which always made me happy. The weather too, was rather miserable which was not helping. Furthermore, my cat was euthanised and my father ended up in the hospital. Reflecting on the last couple of weeks like this makes me laugh and figure that perhaps it is best to suffer all pain at once. 

Today, about the 10th day into 100% raw: I feel good. I do get the odd flashing image of fresh bread and eggs. Even a cake comes to my vision sometimes which is most strange since I have lived without cake for years now. With an exception of a few months when I lived abroad. 

My transition to raw was very long. 

In 2012 I stopped eating all artificial sugars. I also gave up all saturated fats and had my steaks lean and pink. 

In April 2015, meat, dairy and booze got ousted. By January 2016 I was back on the booze, fish, chips and cooked vegan foods. Stuff which I'd hardly ever eat. Things like chips and crisps... 

Luckily, I always ate a lot of fruit and veg and I get to continue to eat it a lot more. 

What I am saying is that going raw has so far not been painless. Moody and depressive. But, like I said previously, it could be for other reasons. Giving up coffee alone is rather tough. And I still have a feeling that I will drink it again sometime. A bit like other drugs, cigarettes and men: at first the habit to think of them seems permanent. But, everything changes and so will my cravings. 

I find that practicing giving up is the best way to get there. Do it a few times until it works. One day at the time. 

I almost went raw in the summer of 2015. But, I couldn't.

I thought that socially I was already at somewhat a difficult position because I wasn't drinking. (Most of my family and friends drink booze.) Now, I just want those fibroids out. Social outcast or not the body comes first. 

What are fibroids concealing?

Can meditation help?

It was first Dan McDonald that I heard say in one of his Youtube videos that tumours are a collection of toxins which the body tried to reject to protect itself. An inflammation of some sort. The body's defence mechanism, a survival tactic keeping as much of the body working as well as possible. Essentially, making fibroids a big garbage bin. What, then is the actual problem? 

Fibroids give symptoms (heavy bleeding, maybe some pain, bulging, pressing on bladder and cologne). Removing them would be in vain. They are functioning because some other parts of the body need protecting. Hormonal imbalance, some say. Still, 'no one is certain'. If I was to take tablets for hormones I would have to suffer side effects. Some women have experienced such strong side effects from progesterone that they became socially inept, isolated, argumentative and similar. 

In 2015 I took Agnus Castus - Vitex (a herbal remedy which is unregulated - bought from Holland and Barrett) for about 20 days. As a consequence my menses lasted for 20 days. I was bleeding and spotting so randomly and most of the time. Menses slowly got back to normal in eight months. I had to go for hysteroscopy and was devastated. Although I knew it was Vitex which caused prolonged bleeding I was still questioning my self. 

I meditated. Of course I did. It helped. It always helps. It keeps me centred. Mind is very powerful and the body has been designed so beautifully that every time I learn something new, every time I make a new observation I feel elevated and exited. When I find supporting theories by others to agree with my observations somehow my ego wants to share it. It is reassuring that my brain is not in vain. 

I have some interesting evidence to support the hypothesis that illness or a tumour is body's way to protect itself as well as that meditation, or, the switching off the brain keeps the body healthy. But it is with an example of Alzheimer's Disease. 

Six years ago I observed my aunt with Alzheimer's to be in perfect health. She was agile and fast, able to use her body perfectly. Her blood results were great. She seemed fit and medically, other that her memory, she seemed perfectly fit. I decided that it was something to do with switching off the brain that the health of our body was in tact. 

I made a connection with meditation. My reasoning was that after spending spending some time attempting not to think we are are halting brain's influence on our body. We are giving the brain and the body a break. A time to fix itself. 

I mentioned this to a medical doctor looking after my aunt but we didn't discuss it. Instead, I made a mental note of if and it is only now, six years on that I have found others thinking along the same line. (Freakishly, around the same time!) Luckily they are scientist. Their hypothesis is that the ß amyloid which is a protein that wraps its fibres around brain neurones (it can affect heart, liver and kidneys) causing them to halt their previous job. However, "ß amyloid has an ancient role in the body protecting against foreign invaders". (Underwood, E. Science AAAS) So, the body is sacrificing some neurones to keep itself alive. Sickness as a way of survival. In a way, the Alzheimer's is working to keep the body working as long as possible. Alzheimer's is a consequence of a bigger problem. 

        I assume medical doctors learn this at school. I am new to it and am very excited  - and probably very flawed in my knowledge. Right now it makes sense so I find it important to  share my understanding of fibroids and how I can be rid of them. It is also a process which I would find beneficial to read if written by someone who has managed to rid their bodies of fibroids naturally. 

        I know that this reads very obvious. And, it is. Which is what is so buffling about the way we live our lives. The bodies are not harmonious. We are polluting them and they are getting sick in their quest to keep ticking.

        I am so grateful that it is only fibroids that I have to deal with and if my raw diet does not make them go away but halt their growth whilst the rest of the body gains some harmony for as long as possible, then I can be satisfied and grateful.

Treating symptoms is not enough. 

I figure Alzheimer's keep the body protected by switching off certain neurones. Does this mean that if in a healthy body we meditate - give the brain a bit of a break - will the brain be more harmonious with the rest of the body? I think so. 

I by no means profess we get ourselves an Alzheimer's rather, I believe that Moir and Tanzi (Underwood, E. Science AAAS) theory proves my hunch that my aunt's body was in good health as a consequence of her brain ignoring her body. She ended up losing all control of her body and spent the last couple of years in bed. Alive, but unable to govern her body. The body entered a survival mode and it survived for a long time after it was able to be useful. 

What I do profess is meditation. Give ourselves a break, a nourishment for brain. Don't think about the body whilst you meditate. Just be. Observe all that arises without judgment. 

Then nourish your body with food which it needs. Not the food that you want. The food which the body requires. 

Create balance and harmony and hopefully we will create our body as an environment unsuitable for fibroids. 

I give myself a year to heal my body of tumours on raw diet. I have to do all that I can.

RAW FOR JUST OVER A WEEK

I have been eating salads. They are delicious. I tend to buy small amount of ingredients and play with them whilst they last. Throwing away food has never been my forte. 

Today I had

Apple cider vinegar as soon as I got out of bed. 

A few hours later I made a salad with 

   red cabbage (anti cancerous properties)

   tomatoes
   avocados
   sprouted beans and chickpeas
   sprouted alfalfa seeds
   sea salt
   hemp seed oil 
   long green beans
   and a little organic apple cider vinegar (an excellent all rounder)\

Later, I had a punnet of strawberries, handful of walnuts, some watermelon and little pineapple juice. More as a snacks than proper dinner over a few hours.

Not to forget plenty of water too. :) 

I want to eat more but I feel very full. Raw food is very filling. 

Fibroid Diagnosis

I lived with fibroids in complete ignorance for around five years. 

I remember massaging my belly and thinking there was something not quite right. Still, I just kind of ignored it putting it down to my lack of knowledge of internal organs. Oh dear, you may read. I, however, think this was a good thing. I was kind of blissful. I didn't feel sick and other than heavier periods than before 2010 (the year fibroids came about) and PMS, I was alright. It is only upon reflection that I realise where my dysfunctional social life in those 5 years stems from. The prolonged madness that is the PMS.

However, I have always been fond of PMS because it is then that I put my foot down to terrible relationships, injustices and all other unfairness that come my way. This is why PMS exists. If we stay lovely and nice all the time nothing would change and the bullies would just keep on bullying.

So, there was me, blissfuly ignorant. Then, chatting to a friend - it was a bit of a laugh, actually - I figured it was time to look into this lump inside my abdomen. So, naturally I went for the great Google and diagnosed myself with colon cancer!!! hahah... I was calm - I wasn't sure but I was prepared.

This was all going on on my winter beach holiday where there was one lovely Italian medical doctor holidaying like me: playing volleyball, swimming, reading, drinking, socialising, taking pictures and just having a lovely time. That day of diagnosis I found him sunbathing to the sound of breaking waves. I told him that I had colon cancer to which he responded: "so, shall we burry you in the sand or set you off into the sea?" Oh, he is a funny one. And incredibly luckily an internal organs specialist.

He examined my abdomen for a while and told me that he is 99% sure that I have a couple of fibroids and that I should get it double checked in the UK. And then, he said words which had so much power that they governed my journey here. He said: "it's not a problem, they can be healed naturally with gingko , etc"

Fibroids can be healed naturally

What does it mean?

Immediately I started googling: heal fibroids naturally. Now, of course, I would only ever google things such as heal the uterus, remove fibroids naturally.. etc. Because I don't want to heal fibroids, I want them to disappear, I want them gone. 

I learned that Omega fats are needed for hormone balancing so I bought a bottle of flaxseed oil. I took a few sips and felt so sick that I couldn't eat anything for a couple of days. Perhaps this was the whole point because during a fast fibroids shrink. Depriving the body of all food puts it into healing mode. Apparently, according to a scientist in one of the millions of documentaries I have watched, 'diabetes used to be cured by starving patients... albeit some of them starving to death'. It's quite a bad side effect I suppose. 

However, from personal experience, I know that fasting shrinks them. But, it has to be done regularly.   

So, then I was just eating actual flaxseeds and I immediately stopped drinking alcohol to the horror of all of my beach friends. It didn't last long. I went back to alcohol. Being tipsy is just so fantastic. So fantastic that I spent all of my 20s and 30s drinking. That is two decades of going to the pub at least once per week and getting drunk. Not always but a lot. 

I also came across this site where I took some advice from. I started some positive thinking, Reiki healing, acupuncture, and some time later I stopped consuming meat, dairy and alcohol. 

I bought a kindle book by Allan Warshowsky called Healing Fibroids: a doctor's guide to a natural cure.  I read it in almost one sitting, soaking up everything and being reassured that it is possible to say goodbye to Bob and Max (my fibroids) without going to surgery or taking hormones. Dr. Warshowsky informed me of some crucial things to keep me hopeful such as:

'women with only nine to eleven years of education are more likely to undergo a hysterectomy than women with higher degrees..'  

Do laugh, but the odds of me keeping my uterus are getting higher with this book. 

Most importantly,  what this means is that we must read around and question everything we are told. Take control of the healing and know the ins and outs. For example, going for myomectomy removes fibroids but does not remove the cause of fibroids so they will most likely come back. If the environment for them to flourish is good they will keep coming back. Simple.

My local GP said to me: "your fibroid is the size of a grapefruit and uterus the size of a plum. Just get it all removed." I cried. But this guy is a funny one. When I was 27 I went to him with heavy lung infection. He said: "What do you want me to do? Stop smoking for you?" hahah... I laugh about it now. During that same lung infection I smoked only about one cigarette a day rather than 15. I was hooked. Lung infection came back once more before I eventually stopped smoking 5 years after the said GP visit. 

No more lung infections. 

Like I said in my previous post, the body wants us to stop giving it toxins. It doesn't want antibiotics, it just wants to be given locally grown natural nourishment. I say local because all fruit and vegetables are superfoods and there are equivalents of all of them on each continent. Such as for example goji berries and strawberries. Eat a variety of fruit and vegetables and Bob's ya uncle. (I don't mean my Bob the fibroid, rather a metaphorical English-phrase Bob.)

Reading around the problem of fibroids books and articles asked me to reflect on causes of fibroids. I did and I put it down to some stress in the past. Now, 15 months on I am certain that I cannot take back the stress that I went through in the past. I have accepted it. What I can do is to change the way I feed my body. I have stopped giving it toxic food and drink. If it was stress and not drinking, smoking, milk and meat that caused the creation of the mucus (some define fibroids as mucus) then there is nothing I can do about it. I meditate, I pray, I am certain and resolute to rid the body of Bob and Max. And, it is this resoluteness and prayers that send me on the path which is to heal the body as a physical entity which requires particular physical nourishment where each cell has to be given the right environment to live with each other in harmony. 

If the body is not correct on a chemical, molecular level then meditation, reiki, acupuncture, positive thinking are all in vain. They are only not in vain when they have led us to the right path. And, yes, continue praying but also take the necessary steps to alter the physicality of all the particles of our being. Replace the disharmony with harmony. Physically, intellectually, spiritually and with patience. Join me on this journey of fibroid free life. 

One Week being 100% Raw

Today is exactly one week since I began the all raw food consumption. I haven't even looked at nor been tempted by all those other foods that I got used to loving and depending on for nutrition, fun, pleasure, comfort and taste. I put them aside from my mind and my wants.

As a consequence my fibroids (Bob and Max - they have a minute little baby as well, a third small fibroid we shall call It if it ever needs a mention. I very much doubt it since it's even more harmless that its seniors.), so, Bob and Max are getting a little softer and a little more malleable. They seem to be more accepting of their upcoming demise. They are shrinking in fear of death and they are losing volume for the lack of toxins which they love as much as I used to. All that wine, meat, milk, sugar and bread. They loved that stuff and without it Bob and Max are finally feeling unwanted and are packing their bags.

Prior to hitting them with all the food they hate: fresh and uncooked fruit and veg as well as seeds and nuts, Bob and Max wouldn't let the bladder hold anything for longer than three hours during the night. They press on it and wake me up all through the night. Last night, my dear ladies, I was asleep for the whole six hours before I was chased to the bathroom.

I drunk plenty of water and plenty of fresh beetroot, carrot, celery and lemon juice throughout the day. Much more than a couple of litres. Therefore, six hours without emptying the bladder cannot be assumed to be lack of hydration.

Is raw diet/detox/lifestyle working. It has been one week. Fibroids are still here but it seems they will go. The negotiations and strategy is to continue until I win. For the sake of the body, for the sake of the mind, for the sake of getting my six pack back.

Dear Body,

Once, a lover said to me how nice it is for a woman to have a bit of a belly. I wasn't aware at the time that it was Bob and Max posturing their might in there. At this time in my life I was getting up at sunrise each morning running along the beach, doing sprints, sit-ups, press-ups, etc... Reclaiming my body. Yet the six pack was sitting on top of a bulge. I had no idea.

I understand that a comment that a woman with a belly is nice was just to keep things sweet and it really doesn't matter about how big our bellies are. Yet, my body was communicating with me and I didn't know what it wanted. It looked different. It behaved differently. I stopped giving it sugars and fats. I fasted. I exercised. But, I also went wild with wine and would frequently have a cup of milk after a gym session. I thought I was doing what it wanted me to do. I thought I was paying attention.

For so many people, and for me, for so very long when there is a problem in the body I worry that it is lacking something. So I give it 'stuff'.What do you want my dear body? It is only now that understand that we are destroying our bodies with the food that we consume. The body doesn't actually need as much as I have been piling into it. All those steaks, Sunday roasts, pies and breads. NO. The body never wanted any of that stuff. I wanted it. It so certainly does not need a bottle of wine, spirits and sodas all night long once or twice a week. Give the body a rest. It wants less, not more. Replace the toxins with live fresh fruits and vegetables and it will rest and get a chance to fix itself - because, the body can fix itself.

Or, at least I dare to hope. So, I eat for you not for me. Not for Bob and Max.

Fibroids, natural cure

I wanted to write this blog this time last year. I actually created one post then deleted it a few days later. I was not sure that the quest to heal my uterus would work. Now, a year on, I am more confident and reassured that my uterus is about to become fibroid free. I have a good reason and evidence to believe that fibroids will diminish sometime within the next year, if not sooner.

Why am I so sure that I will be fibroid free?

1:
In the last week they have shrunk substantially. I can see that they are smaller. I can feel that they are smaller and I also measure them with a measuring tape. Actually, I can only measure one of them since the other is at the back and my spine is in the way to have a little feel. The one in the front - lets call him Bob for the ease of communication - protrudes from my stomach so is clearly visible and feel-able. So, Bob, is a centimetre smaller all round than it was this time last year. Bear in mind that it  got a bit bigger in between. So much bigger that I didn't dare measure him.

2:
I have finally taken real steps towards cleansing my body of toxins that have made Bob and his mate Max (a kind name for a back pain producer the posterior intramural fibroid).

3:
My menses has become lighter. The volume of blood has been halved. This is due to my stopping consuming all meat and dairy a year ago.

4:
My menses is lighter because I do not consume any other sugars but those naturally occurring in fruit and vegetables.

5:
I shall do my best to inform myself of all that which will work in ushering Max and Bob out of my body. Moreover, I now have the strength and tenacity to continue on this hard road which I begun in 2012 subconsciously, and on 6th April 2015 consciously. I am all in!


I will elaborate on all of the above points with each new post. It will all make sense and if I can inspire at least one other person to take charge of healing their body and not have to go to surgery, not have their uterus meddled with or even removed (this horrifies me and even though i understand that for some people removal of organs may be life saving I still cannot help but feel utterly horrified by it. Therefore, I will do everything I possibly can to prevent such thing coming to me. And, if you can do the same and I can help us both then we shall be happier. Life on hormone replacement therapies is subservient to life without meat, alcohol, milk, bread, eggs, fish... Just one more point, fibroids are benign tumours so they are not life threatening and fibroid problems are insignificant in comparison to so many diseases out there. Still, this is no reason to be complacent about it. Our bodies are communicating with us. They are telling us something's out of balance. Lets listen to them and lets communicate with our bodies. Give them respect. They are the only ones that we will have to live with for the rest of our lives. I love mine. Please, please love yours.)

Please join me on this quest to heal our bodies of those ugly tumours. Having said this, I do feel attached to them since they have been with me for some time and we are used to each other and they are on my mind all the time. They are like an emotionally unavailable man. They love me so they take the toxins that I have fed the body with. But, their love is misplaced. They are only good for that one thing. And, they have served me well. They have awaken me to my errors of indulgence in alcohol, meat, cakes and bad relationships.

I could eat two packs of Jaffa Cakes in one go!!!

I could eat a whole Sainsbury's walnut cake in one sitting. Oh, that delicious greasy, sticky, yellowish dough with intermittent bite of a whole walnut. Yum. But, those days are over. I remember the taste well not to need another bite. And this, dear reader, makes me human. One who is able to take control  of the healing process premised on logical thinking and being adamant that it is healed body that I desire rather than a meek removal of the object of frustration.